I know that we have all probably been through heartbreak. It’s one of the worst things I have ever lived through in my opinion. You love someone so much you would do anything to be with them and they just throw all this love out the window without caring. How is it that in a relationship theres always a person that loves one more than the other. I have so much fear for that. I have already been in a heartbreak before and it’s not something I would like to repeat again. I’m so scared to be in another relationship where I will love that person more than they love me, but at the same time I would love to know what it feels like to be in love with someone and actually make it last. Why do we go through this? Love really does know how to throw you around and make you feel down. I say to think before you fall in love but I think thats really hard to do. Sometimes we fall in love without noticing we are. Sometimes I feel like there should be more to this life than heartbreak and misery. Why can’t the people who we are in love with love us back. It’s not fair. Life would have probably been so much easier if it were like that. I hate to hold my feelings in and pretend I’m okay when I’m not.
Sooo This is my first post on this blog and pretty much what this blog is about is my life. I know no one will ever read it but wtheckk.
So I’m going to start by introducing myself, my name is Vanessa. I’m 18 turning 19 Nov 10. I attend college and I’m currently working 2 jobs. I can describe myself as a very complicated person. My life has so many twists and turns and sometimes I don’t even know what to do with myself. I feel like when I look around no one has the problems I do. My problems may not be that big but I am the only one who understands myself and my complexity. And sometimes I don’t even understand myself. I have or had a boyfriend we broke up like 3 days ago. I’m not sure what to feel for now but I know I kinda miss him. Well here goes this publish to no one. Bye (x